Sheer Luck

Its thirty one past 12 at night. same old routine. mummy watching tv, me on the couch, laptop on my lap.... facebooking, farmville and cafe world, my latest love.... some kinda music playing off and on... all in all, i dont mind admitting that im bored... dont know why, but ever since ochu left this time, i am suffering with this unbeatble insomnia.. it sucks, cuz in the end, its the night's sleep that comforts you, what do you think ? but i dont think ive slept in the past few days at all. i wonder what is keeping me so restless... i mean im glad im over with university... i dont really have anything eating my head 24/7, still.... i doubt, when exactly i can get out of it ?

I dont remember exactly, but im making tea ever since i started lighting the match stick. My family being one of the "tea-anytime-everytime-" sort, im the one who was supposedly responsible for making them tea at any time of the day. Once baba comes back home, give him one cup of tea (a good one-mind it) and he's upto whatever u want him to do.. and then bro darling, he has developed this " where's my bed tea" ? syndrome too. so all in all, i can go for a nomination where i can compete for highest number of times i make tea. But now, i believe that somehow in recent years, my tea making ability has become a lil' more perfect, i started noting when a few regular guests who come and have tea made it a point that they get tea only when i make them, otherwise no. but then, i had confusions like maybe everyone who makes tea tastes the same as it does to me when i make it.. i started comparing it with other places. No.. not it all.. not even near to what it ta...

Time and again i go through things that remind me of happenings which made the way i am today. This is another way of blaming actually, putting all the blame on something that i had gone through, even if it wasnt the case all together. I still remember last year the month of february started, with all its glee and joy, making me more softer on my part, making things as wonderful as i could've imagined, and i had only gathered a few new dreams on the begining of my new year.. but then perhaps, i was not meant to close my eyes and dream like that... Still more to go.. Its February again, and im sorry but i dont want to relate any hopes to this lovely month. i know it hurts too bad when they get ruined all together.