Sheer Luck

I think im wrong when i say ive grown up with the due liberty that gives me the feeling of being decisive when its needed. Only because i know that no matter what, i still look up to people around who can help me out make choices for myself. At times i feel sick of doing what im told. but then i realize, had i been so good in taking my steps, i would have not done so.. that's the reason behind my indecisiveness. Eventually i end up depending on people around to guide me for my good. But again, how dumb you are, you can not live with this instruction based life for long. Talk about me, i have always imagined my life to be free to the extent of taking my decisions on my own. Feeling absolutely empowered on things that bring good to me or things that make me feel bad. I always wondered what does it feel like getting up in the morning knowing that i am spending a complete day on my own. No one to ask, no one to bother..dreams as i say ! Come to the next picture, i thought i wanted to b...

Life carries too many things that are sometimes way too hard to digest and makes you feel crushed into a million broken pieces. Even if you want to gather all the courage to sum up whatever is left within you, you still get this empty feeling at hand. This is nevertheless a good reason to close all the doors you see opening on to you. No matter how hard you try, you would get defeats every time you feel like having this wining spirit in yourself. This again, is not a valid reason for you to give up. Look at me, i can boast of one thing about me though. I never had a very fascinating life that i could show others to feel envied about. But yet, along with all those hurdles, each time i cried, i took a deep breath and went back to sleep. Even if i see myself with soggy eyes in the morning, i know it won't last more than a day. And then again im ready to meet people who would at times love me for what i am or hate me for what i cannot be. The thing is, i can never see myself the way ot...

It was only yesterday that I used to think about what it is like working. By working I was thinking about getting into the practical world. But I felt there was this fear within me of facing the world outside. I never wondered what was causing it inside me neither I thought of getting rid from it. It wasn’t like I never was a part of the social circle or that I never had any chance of getting out of my box but still I was hoping that one day I would see myself standing in front of this syndrome and feel relaxed. Then one day finally I figured out that I am supposedly looking for a chance to go out and work. And I succeeded within no time. Getting this help from a dear friend was as good as heaven to me. I was actually working at this small firm within the next few days of my interview being carried out. I found it rather comfortable being there. Soon I was introduced to this bunch of girls who already worked there. Everyone was unique in their own way and yet they had this one thing c...